What is what you fight for?

What you want for your life? 

When I was young I had a visions of how the way life must be in a very different way then now.    I can't say that right now my visions is the right one, and I surely love more what was my opinion in my youth,  but it's not possible, so I will take what I have as good as is possible.

So: right now I have some priority, and my priority is my family and my home. And in order to my home by O.K. is need money, and money is hard to make it in my own country, so for a while I must work in U.K., and with money wined hear at hard work to make a small business in my country. I really wish to work on internet website  or blogging, and to winn some money from that. But it may not be a successful idea, so I must concentrate to some other ideas, ...... I hope I find something in the next week, something to like it and to make profit from it. 

Far away from home Cap. 12

Every day you must learn something new. Uonfortunately  when you tired, like me today, after 12 hours of physicals work, you don't remember anything. 

One things I like in factory. Because is many nationality every body say O.K. with big finger up. And I like that.

And .... This is all for today. 

Far away from home Cap. 11

O.K. Let's put on the table why I come in U.K. for work. My story.

My wife is sick,  has epilepsy, diseases of System Neuronal Centre.

I have 2 kids, first of 8 year and the other 9.

So I must work hard to provide them all they need. That's why I come to England, to work, for money.

I wish that when I'll come back un country, to do a lot. But one of them is to make a office of my on, where to write a screen play for a movie. And probably couple of book, cause I love writing.

But of course is another other many things which must be done.

I hope I will be app to work every day, at lest 6 months.   It wil be hard without my family close to me, but for them is all this.

In next week I must apply for National Insurans Number. And then I will write about that. 

Far away from home Cap. 10

Sometimes all you want is to run from all of this, to give up, to return home.

But is probably the accommodation time, which is very hard. And when you live with some people who in every saturday night make party with music at maximum, is bad. 

It's a huge different from the life you have in your one home, and even in time you will be used with that, it will never be  O.K., and probably it's a good things in some how, cause you may try to make all this sacrifice to have a reason and a meaning, and when you will return home you will appreciate mach more  your home, friends, life from home.

Work for money with pleasure

I think there is only a few people in this word who go to work for pleasure. But certainly all of them go to work for money.

But if the job is nothing what you wish and it is the oposed  of to be nice, you should star to force yourself to like it. Try to find some good side of it, other why you will crack.

Even you don't like your job star enjoin it. Make same adjustments in you way of see work in such way to make it loved. In this way you will be happy.    Because when you do what you like, and you are even paid for that: you are happy. 

Believe in church

For a wile I stop believe in what church (all of them) say to us.

Maybe because a lot of things make me put serious questions. Let see some of them:

1. If Christianity wasn't  promoted with sour for hundred of eyers it may not be existed in our day at all.

2. If Jesus was poor why all priests and other leader of different church are extremely rich since they followed Him? 

3. Why all four gospel has apostolic  name at it writers if the real writers are unknown?

4. Which is the real church from hundreds if every one of them claim that they have the only truthfully way. 

5. Why if they believe in Bible ignore some part of it willingly?

6. Why in Old Testament  God order to kill and in New the same God say to love enemy?

This are some of my questions. And I'll really want some answer. But I wold like that the answer I'll may receive to not be from someone whit brain wash in some theological school.    

All the time think positive

Some times when life are not in the way we exacted we have to chose if we want to find best of it or complained all day long.

That why  even in bad moment we must find something nice, something to enjoy us, to make us please. Of course is hard to do that when it seems that our whole universe is collapsed. But we must try.

Is like when you smile to some other people even you are not happy, and even if this smile in some how is fake, it still have a good impact, in the same way we must find a god part in all this  bad situations. Even we must lie ourselves for that.